Today's blog is going to be a little different, it is going to be a free-for-all, stream of consciousness, random musing on wishes and daydreams. I have been in an island, Jimmy Buffett frame of mind the last week or so and that has me both daydreaming of the ideal future as well as in the doldrums of the present reality.
The present reality has me in Colorado (which I do love) awaiting 7-12 inches of snow (also which I do love in it's own way) working a part time job (12-16 hours a week at $8.16 per hour) and no great future prospects. This is where the doldrums set in... I am nowhere close to where I would ideally love to be, nor does this reality provide me with the possibility of getting there in the future.
The ideal wish/daydream would be to sell or give away everything I can't take with me and just pack the essentials (a few clothes, some treasured books, the iPad, iPhone and laptop) and make my way in whatever method available to a Caribbean Island and just stay there. Find a hut or a shack to live in, find whatever odd or small job I can (that would ideally provide me just enough to live on.. I am a simple man at heart and don't really require much outside of food and water and dry place to store my books). And then to spend the rest of whatever time God has allotted me on Earth living out that dream. I don't need a big house, I don't need a lot of possessions (although I do need my books and hopefully the iPad and laptop and thus I would need some electricity to keep them charged). I really don't need TV, while I do appreciate it and watch a lot because it is there.. I wouldn't really miss it all that much and it is certainly one of the first things I could live without.
That is just a daydream however, I have no present way to make it a possiblity. In other words I don't make enough to pay what bills I do have much less save enough up to run off to that island paradise. However, should the day arise be warned.. I am gone. All I have left in close family is my Dad (most of you are aware I lost my Mom and Brother in the last couple of years) and should something happen to him... I will make this dream a reality in whatever way I can.. I would have nothing left for me, so off I would go.
I have had many people tell me that I should at least save up for a vacation to the islands, but I know that once there I would never come back, so maybe that is something I should consider. I know we all have dreams of just running away and never looking back and that is how it usually stays.. just a dream. But I promise myself that should the opportunity arise I will jump at it.. I really have nothing else to look forward to in the future or to hold me around.
Anyway.. I just needed to get that out, thanks for putting up with me while I put it out there in the cyber world.
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